[DF] Faun Barbarian - Bessarion

[Tymathee]

Originally Posted by Christopher R. Rice

Yeah, you really shouldn't.

I don't know what I don't know, I can only guess. If you took offense to my statement, I apologize.

I'm all too familiar with homophobia/transphobia. A lot of the horrific child abuse and trauma I experienced as an adult was because of it.

As a child, I was repeatedly raped and molested, neglected and starved, thrown into a room and then subjected to toxic fumes, physically abused to the point of suffering head trauma that caused an immediate seizure, was witness to kittens being smashed to death... the list goes on.

As I transitioned to adulthood, the horror only continued. I've been battling crippling PTSD my entire life... over the past decade, I've been mostly homeless. I've tried to hold onto a job as well as I could despite my mental health, but it was and has been such a struggle. I suffered even more trauma as an adult... threatened with violence and raped, beaten and left to bleed in a puddle of my own blood by someone throwing hateful slurs, narrowly escaping with a female friend from a machete-wielding mad man hellbent on murdering us....

I have suffered enough because of homophobia/transphobia.

So, I'm genuinely sincere with my apology. My insensitivity might be born from my "profound callousness", something I've been labeled with before by others. Some might even accuse me of sociopathy... something my older brother was afflicted with before the blunt head trauma and excessive substance abuse totally scrambled the rest of his marbles. I find the accusation laughable, only even somewhat believable if you believe in the "environmental factors" (PTSD, ala Dexter) triggering the genetics.

Unlike my older brother, a child sexual abuser, serial killer of domestic pets, and committer of grand theft auto... I have standards. Those standards include being at least somewhat empathetic to the LGBTQ+ community.